Heart to heart sharing

Yesterday nearer dawn I got a very strange dream, in the dream one of our spiritual kids fell off because of the acceleration of the car,I tried to give hands, but car's speed is really too fast. I woke up with great shocks, then I pondered what is the meaning of the dream. I prayed to the Lord all day long today, in the morning when I prayed in spirit, I can't stop groaning,sigh,and when I prayed in my understanding,I was debating myself with all the reasoning,analysis,even blaming myself,sometimes I got so angry on that kid not listen to me in the first place.

I found out when we face the problems the reason why we need to worship,worship and worship until our eyes can see Jesus not in your situation,because we can't figure out the answer and Father has all the answer. The intercession continued until evening(I tried harder not letting my reasoning and logic come in), I started praying that Father, let all the kids who you entrust me not lost one, please. Peter coming into my vision,Peter declared that"Even if all fall away, I will not", but Jesus told him that he would deny him 3 times,Peter did as the Lord prophesied. I believe when Jesus knew that Peter was going to deny him, Jesus must be heart broken, and He wouldn't like to see the prophecy be fulfilled and prove that He was right and Peter was wrong. I began weeping, and crying out:O Father, I can't bear seeing anyone of my kid falling off the car. I pray for each one of them not being lost.They are yours Father, please keep them and protect them for your name's sake.


昨天近破曉時分，我做了一個怪夢，夢中我的一個屬靈孩子因為我駕駛的車加速度太快而掉出車外。我試著去拉，但車的速度在太快快。了。我在震驚中醒了過來，我反覆思索著這夢的意義。今天整天尋求主，早上我只用靈禱告時，我似乎是不止息的嘆息著。只要在悟性中，我就會不斷的與自己的理性、分析及對自我的責備爭辯，甚至我還會責備那個孩子，為甚麼早不聽話呢?

我發現當我們面對難處時要不停得敬拜，敬拜，敬拜直到我們的眼目不再事情，而在主耶穌身上的原因，我們根本不可能藉理性分析而找出答案，父神握有所有的解答。代求持續到傍晚，我努力的不讓理性及邏輯分析介入。
我開始禱告說:父啊!不讓任何一個祢託付我的孩子失落了。彼得信誓旦旦的說:眾人都跌倒，他卻不會。結果主向他說:你將三次不認我。我相信當主知道彼得將三次不認主時，祂的心一定碎了，祂期待的一定不是要看見祂的預言是準確，而彼得是錯的。我開始哭泣起來，我哭求主:父啊!我不願也不能看見有任何一個孩子失去，為祢自己名的緣故，保守，保護他們，他們是祢重價贖回的，他們屬於祢。